People always say that catching up with old or long lost friends will always be a chance to reminisce on the good times.

Personally, I won’t say that it is so.. Its more a pickup of where we left off. Maybe we’ve put on a couple (or so) pounds, we look a bit older, we have different views on our future but from ‘Hello’ everything else is the same.

There is no stilted conversation, no odd bouts of silence. The chattering flows as easily as Champagne during a party. From updating each other on the happenings on each of the members of our clique that have inadvertently also drifted apart to claiming that this meal was two years in the making. 

I know this post is late, but PN this photo is now very dear to me. To me, it stands for how we even travelled together to prolong the meeting (which I am so grateful) and that it was an automatic team work in creating this with hardly a discussion.

Thank you for a laughter filled night and I wish that there will be many more to come.

And so, this is the next chapter in her life. I wish her all the best and I pray that I will be able to live up to being the best aunt that Angel can ever have.

I cannot wait to see her and I already know my heart belongs to this lil Angel

I can’t be sure if I’m doing better at work or not. Currently I am just worn down and working through everything that is thrown at me. Some days seems better than hours, and even some hours in a day can be miles apart from another one.

I keep bring home work to do, but not a lot gets completed… this weekend I brought back work again, tho I am not sure why I did so since I have an almost fully packed weekend.

Right now I am just too tired to even go and do the number of things I have waiting for me. I wonder if I should go receive my friend at the airport even since I have to be back in this part of the island a couple hours after he lands.

I keep telling myself I have to blog, but I don’t. I have a whole list of blog topics, which I put in my PDA, but now I have forgotten what half of them was about. I feel like I am pushing myself too hard but I don’t know how to stop that.

It’s been ages since I have seen most of my friends. It seems that colleagues tend to be the people you spend your life with. I have been eating dinner with my colleagues pretty often these days. But at least they are nice people. The relationship between some of my colleagues is improving and I am thankful for that.

Thank you once again for everything. I’m glad I went. As a continuation to the note, I am very grateful that you are in my life. At times, it’s just enough to know that you are walking beside me and egging me on.

Yes I know my school of thought that I am not worthy of what has already been given to me. But I think it’s just a process I need to work through and thank you for letting me walk at my own pace with my insane notions and complete and utter inability to sometimes progress forward. I am deeply appreciative that you are willing to be so utterly patient amidst all my failings.

While you embark on this new journey, I have nothing but great wishes and my thoughts and prayers will always be with you. I know you will do so brilliantly well and I have utmost faith in you that you will always succeed on this path you have chosen.

I have this friend (yes, it sounds stupid to say it as the opposite would be that I have no friends which would make me quite a sad soul) and we have been friends for some time now and we sometimes spend quite a bit of time together.

The strange things is, sometimes it seems like we are just toeing the line. Unsure what to do about the other. In some way, he has stated that one of the criteria he looks for a in partner – I don’t have it. But yet there is still this underlying tension every once in a while. While I could be sensitive and he just really only sees me as a friend, I do wonder quite often if there is something more.

I wonder if all the times we both make an effort to spend time with each other is more than just being there for a friend. I know he always seems to be there for me, whenever I need a listening ear or just a shoulder to rest on. The other side of it is, I know he is that kind of person, who is always there for his friends and always will make time for them and I think he would even make a great counselor if he wanted to.

Which makes my situation even more difficult as it’s hard to sieve out if it is all just part of his character or if there is something more there. There are days when I can see myself taking it another step above friendship, then there are some days where I cannot see us move beyond the level of friendship.

It is a confusing and weird state to be in and I am utterly confused and not sure what to do.

As we grow older, the issues we worry about change.

These days I’m fretting over my future house and nest egg. Worrying that I won’t be able to one day be able to have either. So I have spent my past few weeks trying to find a solution to ease the frown lines on my face.

Today, I received news of a new issue.

While I was not prepared for it, I am extremely pleased and happy about this. Tho it had taken a while to sink it, I think the phone call made it all real (As opposed to the message I had heard.)

Babe, while I can’t be with you during this period. I will try my best to get some time off as soon as work permits and fly over to spend some time with you guys.

I am just so thrilled about it that I still can’t sleep at 6am in the morning and decided to do a blog post instead.

This year’s parting seemed a lot less painful on the surface as compared to last year. The internal struggle before and the quiet moments after say otherwise though.

I know it is only temporary, but my mind can’t seem to wrap myself around that. Especially since I need him here now more than ever. I just cannot bring myself to tell him that for various reasons. 

I think the picture says it all. Not much need for my ramblings. Twas a great night. Thanks

It’s been a long day – both at work and on the personal front.

My sounding board, my voice of reason in the midst of my madness, my grounding for my castles in the air, etc etc etc (I could go on, but what is really the point) is gone… From the time the person stood 5 feet away from me, I felt lost and alone. All I could do was not cry and stand there and watch the distance between us grow.

It seems almost certain that my partner in crime is not coming back too. I can’t seem to shake the feeling of loneliness now.

As the tear drops fall,
The soul empties out.
Loneliness creeps in,
Under the cloak of sadness.

I caught up with a good friend recently. I swear we talk online so much more than in person. But it was a great night of chitchat.

We met and kept in touch under the oddest situations. The two of us are such complete opposites in so many ways but yet it is our differences that make us so similar.

We are oddballs in this conformist society and we have such interesting debates. It a sense of kinship, a sense of knowing you aren’t alone in this harsh herd-like world. Tho our views might differ on many a topic, it doesn’t matter. As we know our opinion is heard, and we are actually different people—so differing opinions are a good thing.

How boring would it be if we were to agree on everything? The fun in life is always the existence of blacks, whites and greys and the spice is the debates. When we listen to someone’s point of view, we learn a new way of looking of something and very likely a new perspective.